Childbirth, me and death

2024 Author: Seth Attwood | [email protected]. Last modified: 2023-12-16 15:55

Fear for myself … Of course, this was the strongest feeling I had to cope with. It is instinctive, deep, animal … It paralyzes, slows down, saves … The roots of this fear again lie in the child's idea that childbirth is a mortal danger … And this fear is cultivated around our loved ones, the media and just public opinion.

In fact this is not true. More precisely, this is true only in the sense that childbirth is one of the most striking manifestations of life, and life is also like that: mortally dangerous … Of course, the moment when a new life appears is very energetically strong. Our ancestors believed that during childbirth, the gates of two worlds are opened: the world of the living and the world of the dead, that at this moment the soul makes a transition from one world to another. And this, naturally, happens with a huge burst of energy. At the physiological level, this splash is expressed in the loss of blood, in the loss of vital fluid. And how this splash will pass for a woman depends on her spiritual and physical health.

When I came to this understanding, a plan of action opened in front of me, clear as day: to prepare my body and soul so that this surge would not knock me off my feet. With the body, it seems, everything is clear … But how to bridle the soul? How can anxiety and fears jump over? At first I decided not to notice them: I have no fears, I am not afraid of anything, and I will not even think about it. She hid them deeply, deeply, in the most unlit corners of her soul. She lived a little, fought off her mother's and public slaps in the face and realized: the fears have not disappeared anywhere, they are just waiting for you to give up the slack, you will be upset, you doubt - and now they, right there, laughing maliciously from around the corner. Stop, I thought, this will not work. To give birth at home alone, without doctors and good advisers, absolutely freely and easily, I must become stronger than my fears, accept the battle and win, and not hide in the bushes. And I began to get them out of the dark corners, and meet them face to face and win.

The very first and foremost fear: I will die. I began to think: why can I, a young and healthy woman, die during childbirth? There are thousands of medical reasons, the list of which has long been invented by obstetricians-gynecologists, and they are also being implemented. I mean that almost all complications in childbirth and their unfavorable outcomes are the result of outside interference in this process. A process that is regulated by two main actors: the mother and her child. Everything, nobody else. Nobody else in the world can know how this process should go. And even more so, medical workers, whose consciousness, as a result of many years of studying how everything can go wrong, is sharpened for all sorts of pathologies. By the way, when I was preparing for childbirth theoretically, I decided to read a textbook on obstetrics for medical universities and stopped in time. The textbook consists of descriptions of various forms of pathological conditions, not a single paragraph on the physiological, natural course of labor. Think about it, not a single one.

Well, if you put aside all the "achievements" of medicine and include common sense. I can die if my spiritual and physical body is weak and cannot withstand this surge - once. I can die if there is a husk in my head from other people and from myself, the images of negative experiences are two. I can die if I just don't want to live - that's three. Yes, I do not believe in chance - this is an invention for fools. Everything has its reasons, it's just that we cannot always decipher them. The plan of my actions followed from these constellations: first, I had to strengthen myself, spiritually and physically. I have already talked about the physical part, but the spiritual part is already largely based on this: to feel good, smile and recharge from nature, loved ones and your own actions. And get ready: arm yourself with knowledge about your body and the processes taking place in it. Knowledge should be objective, supported by facts and filtered by common sense and intuition.

Secondly, build only positive images in your head, leaving no room for others. This is a very powerful tool for influencing your life. Accordingly, if someone with a negative image in his head shares his thoughts with you or advises you, go to his stove! Yes, yes, stop communicating or abruptly change the topic, while explaining your position. If you do this persistently and constantly - people understand and change their approach, at least to communication with you. I did this with everyone around me: from my beloved mother to a random companion in the elevator.

And thirdly, to want to live …

Everything. There are no other reasons and never have been. The time for doubt is over.

And the fear for your child, you ask? He is defeated in the same way, and in general it is difficult to separate him into a separate phenomenon. The state of the child is an indicator of the state of mom and dad, not only during pregnancy and childbirth, but also during the first years of life. Set yourself up and your kids will tune in with you. But more on that another time …