The Hans Nilser Diaries or What is the Vatican Hiding?

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Selected quotes from the diaries of Hans Nilser 1899, which describe the secrets of the Vatican, the ancient manuscripts with which the author worked. Unknown manuscripts of the Gospels and accounts of the life of Jesus Christ. Vedas and many other things that are so carefully hidden from people.

Hans Nilser was born in 1849 into a large burgher family and was a devout Catholic. From childhood, his parents prepared him for taking the dignity, and from childhood the boy himself hoped to devote himself to serving God. He was incredibly lucky: the bishop noticed his abilities and sent the talented young man to the papal court. Since Hans was primarily interested in the history of the Church, he was sent to work in the archives of the Vatican.

April 12, 1899Today the senior archivist showed me several funds that I had no idea about. Naturally, I myself will also have to be silent about what I saw. I looked with awe at these shelves, which contain documents from the earliest periods of our Church. Just think: all these papers are witnesses of the life and deeds of the holy apostles, and perhaps the Savior! My task for the next few months is to compare, clarify and supplement the catalogs related to these funds. The catalogs themselves are housed in a niche in the wall, so cleverly disguised that I would never have guessed their existence.

April 28, 1899I work 16-17 hours a day. The senior librarian praises me and warns me with a smile that at this pace, I will go through all the Vatican funds in a year. In fact, health problems are already making themselves felt - here, in the underground, the temperature and humidity are maintained, optimal for books, but destructive for humans. However, in the end, I am doing something that pleases the Lord! Nevertheless, my confessor persuaded me to rise to the surface every two hours for at least ten minutes.

May 18, 1899I am never tired of being amazed at the treasures contained in this fund. There are so many materials here, unknown even to me, who diligently studied that era! Why do we keep them secret, instead of making them available to theologians? Obviously, materialists, socialists and slanderers can distort these texts, causing irreparable damage to our holy cause. This, of course, cannot be allowed. But still…

June 2, 1899I read the texts in detail. Something incomprehensible is happening - the explicit works of heretics in the catalog are next to the true creations of the Church Fathers! Absolutely impossible confusion. For example, a certain biography of the Savior, attributed to the apostle Paul himself. This already does not climb into any gate! I will turn to the senior librarian.

June 3, 1899The senior librarian listened to me, for some reason hesitated, looked at the text I found, and then simply advised me to leave everything as it is. He said that I must continue to work, he will explain everything later.

June 9, 1899 Long conversation with the chief librarian. It turns out that much of what I thought was apocryphal is the truth! Of course, the Gospel is a God-given text, and the Lord (?) Himself ordered to hide some documents so that they would not confuse the minds of believers. After all, an ordinary person needs the simplest teaching possible, without any superfluous details, and the existence of a discrepancy only contributes to a split. The apostles were just people, albeit saints, and each of them could add something from himself, invent or simply misinterpret, therefore many texts did not become canonical and did not enter the New Testament. So the senior librarian explained to me. This is all reasonable and logical, but something worries me.

June 11, 1899 My confessor said that I shouldn't think too much about what I learned. After all, I am firm in my faith, and human delusions should not affect the image of the Savior. Reassured, I continued to work.

August 12, 1899 Every day of my work, very strange facts multiply. The gospel story is presented in a completely new light. However, I don’t trust anyone, not even my diary.

October 23, 1899 I wish I had died this morning. For in the collections entrusted to me, I have found many documents indicating that the story of the Savior was invented from beginning to end! The senior librarian, whom I turned to, explained to me that the main secret is hidden here: people did not see the coming of the Savior and did not recognize him. And then the Lord taught Paul how to carry faith to people, and he got down to business. Of course, for this he had to compose with God's help a myth that would attract people. All this is quite logical, but for some reason I feel uneasy: is it possible that the foundations of our teaching are so shaky and fragile that we need some kind of myths?

January 15, 1900 I decided to see what other secrets the library hides. There are many hundreds of repositories like the one in which I work now. Since I work alone, I can, albeit with a certain risk, penetrate the rest. This is a sin, especially since I will not tell my confessor about it. But I swear in the name of the Savior that I will pray for him!

March 22, 1900 The head librarian fell ill, and I was finally able to enter other secret rooms. I am afraid that I do not know all of them. Those that I saw are filled with a variety of books in languages unknown to me. Among them there are those that look very strange: stone slabs, 5 clay tables, multi-colored threads, woven into bizarre knots. I saw Chinese characters and Arabic script. I do not know all these languages, only Greek, Hebrew, Latin and Aramaic are available to me.

June 26, 1900 From time to time I continue my research for fear of being revealed. Today I found a thick folder with Fernand Cortez's reports to the Pope. Strange, I never knew that Cortez was closely associated with the Church. It turned out that almost half of his detachment consisted of priests and monks. At the same time, I got the impression that from the beginning Cortez knew perfectly well where and why he was going, and deliberately went out to the capital of the Aztecs. However, the Lord has many miracles! However, why do we keep silent about such a great role of our Church?

November 9, 1900 I decided to leave aside the documents related to the Middle Ages. My work in the vault is almost finished, and it seems that they do not want to let me in to the top-secret papers anymore. Apparently, my superiors have some kind of suspicion, although I try not to attract their attention in any way.

December 28, 1900 I found a very interesting fund from my period. The documents are in classical Greek, I read and enjoy. It seems that this is a translation from Egyptian, I cannot vouch for its accuracy, but one thing is clear: we are talking about some kind of secret organization, very powerful, which relies on the authority of the gods and rules the country.

January 17, 1901 Incredible! It just can't be! In the Greek text I found clear indications that the priests of the Egyptian god Amun and the first hierarchs of our Holy Church belonged to the same secret community! Is it possible that the Lord chose such people in order to bring the light of His truth to people? No, no, I don't want to believe it …

February 22, 1901 I think the senior librarian is suspicious. At least I feel being followed, so I stopped working with secret funds. However, I already saw much more than I would like. It turns out that the Good News sent by the Lord was usurped by a handful of pagans who used it to rule the world? How could the Lord tolerate such a thing? Or is it a lie? I'm confused, I don't know what to think.

April 4, 1901 Well, now access to secret documents is completely closed for me. I asked the senior librarian directly about the reasons.“You are not strong enough in spirit, my son,” he said, “strengthen your faith, and the treasures of our library will again open before you. Remember that everything that you see here should be approached with pure, deep, unclouded faith. Yes, but then it turns out that we keep a bunch of falsified documents, a bunch of lies and slander!

June 11, 1901 No, after all, these are not fakes or lies. I have a tenacious memory, besides (God forgive me!) I made many extracts from documents. I carefully, meticulously checked them and did not find a single mistake, not a single inaccuracy that would accompany the forgery. And they are not kept as cheap and malicious libel, but carefully and with love. I'm afraid I will never be able to become the same person with a pure soul. God forgive me!

October 25, 1901 I have written a petition to grant me an extended home leave. My health was failing, and besides, I wrote, I need to cleanse my soul alone. No response has been received yet.

November 17, 1901 The petition was accepted not without hesitation, but, as it seemed to me, not without relief. In three months I will be able to go home. During this time, I should send copies of the documents I found to Augsburg in various ways. This, of course, is disgusting to the Lord … but is it not disgusting to hide them from people? The senior librarian told me many times that I shouldn't tell anyone about the secrets I saw in the library. I swore solemnly. Lord, don't let me become an oath-breaker too!

January 12, 1902 Robbers came to my apartment. They took all the money and papers. Fortunately, I have already secretly sent everything more or less valuable to Germany. The Holy See generously compensated me for the value of the lost valuables. A very strange theft …

18 February 1902 Finally, I'm going home! My superiors saw me off and without enthusiasm wished me a speedy return. It is unlikely that this will ever happen …