Return from Germany to Russia. Personal experience

2024 Author: Seth Attwood | [email protected]. Last modified: 2023-12-16 15:55

-Are you on the relocation program?

- Yes

- And from where?

Pause

(Every time I think about it, maybe from Moldova, in order to avoid continuation …)

- From Germany.

(At this moment, a faint light of curiosity flashes in the eyes of the interlocutor …)

And what is so bad THERE?

It depends on what is good for you.

There is more money, new roads, better transport, but you can't live THERE.

This is approximately how our conversations began for the last three weeks. Our departure from Hanover to Kaliningrad resembled a detective story, or rather its culmination. Until the very last moment, we did not say anything to anyone, did not collect things, did not prepare for departure. On the night before the trip, they collected what had been collected and in the morning got into the car. The streets were empty on Sunday. Germany dissolved into a cold fog.

To heighten the drama, a blizzard caught us in the Polish night forest. We did not sleep for a total of two days. In this state, the night forest looks especially artistic. There were two weeks left until the new year. My husband was running out of visa. It was necessary to have time to get there, cross the border, submit an application, make inquiries and other formalities. And all this in two weeks. It's incredible, but we did manage to do it. Thanks to God who kept us. You are probably wondering why make yourself so difficult? I, too, would have recently been surprised. I'll try to tell you in order. But first, one more small digression, without which it is impossible to understand what, in fact, is happening in the West in general and with us in particular.

Recently, the world is changing so rapidly that it is impossible not to notice, but the faster it changes, the more fanatical people bury their heads in their home bustle, repeating like a magic mantra; “Nothing special is happening, it has always been so. They are up there, they will share everything and agree …” And from this point of view, you will not move an inch of the average man or the advanced intelligentsia. In the meantime, you sit down, on an ordinary morning, in an ordinary German car, turn on an ordinary radio and there you have a low and pleasant female voice, languidly reports, without emotions and assessments, as is customary in the West, objective information and nothing more.

“Since the flow of emigration from the Middle East is huge, it was decided to place the refugees in a former concentration camp. Fortunately, the premises are there, so why should they stand idle"

The quote, of course, is not literal, but the meaning is preserved. You can pinch yourself, but it won't help. You can solve the problem drastically; do not turn on the radio, do not watch TV. The internet is full of interest groups. For example, in the "creative madhouse rainbow" every day there are new jokes, you look and the world is again comfortable and understandable.

But the amazing twenty-first century can lie in wait for you everywhere. While waiting for an appointment with a doctor, you can out of boredom, take a magazine from the table and read detailed material about the delights of group sex, free relationships in partnership and much more interesting things. And the tone of the article will be so mundane and everyday that you will not even be surprised. Well, think of an article. On the playground, ordinary, family people walk with children. Better to talk to them. In one corner the Germans (if they go there at all, and they have children) are Russians in another, and people of eastern appearance are everywhere. The Russian people, of course, were divided into those who are for Ukraine and those who are in shock. The situation when dad basically speaks to the child in Ukrainian language, and mom in Russian is a common thing. So they live. And what?! Nothing special. But you can scold those who have come in large quantities together, looking with horror at the noisy camp. And the east is a delicate matter.

Once I was passing by the playground, suddenly I hear music, oriental, stringy … They play their national instruments live. Germany disappears and the world is completely different. They are settling in a new space, and who is their judge ?! But why our compatriots living in the West, for the most part, do not notice this ?! Because the West makes a voluntary slave out of a person. And if the gingerbread does not work, then there is always a stick. And he hits without sentimentality, with sadistic pleasure. Who said that a white man is smarter than an Indian? The Indians lost the continent for glass beads and ended up on reservations, while we were left without a country for gum, bags with overseas pictures and jeans. Voluntarily. And is it different now? Isn't the minion t-shirt the same thing?

But it was our Eisenstein who experimented with bananas in Mexico, studying the effect of phallic symbols on the psyche. But what about Eisenstein and his universities, the minions themselves will tell everything about themselves. It's not scary that it's scary, it's scary that it's not scary to wear a T-shirt with minions. The scary thing is that until now the West for many is like a noble knight who comes and brings civilization with him, and the endless carnival and fumbling will cover all traces. Who knows what the clown mask hides ?! And when they find out whether it will be too late ?!

It is difficult to get to the west, many people are attracted by the glitter of tinsel, but getting out of there is even more difficult. Free cheese is known to be in a mousetrap. Twenty years ago, leaving for Germany with a Soviet passport, I dreamed of getting a European education, joining world culture. Find out everything that the Soviet state was hiding. And then they will come back and change the world for the better. I was impressed by 19th century German romantics, not branded jeans and clean toilets. Rather, on the contrary, I was frightened by these toilets, as an image of blatant inequality, I was embarrassed to see a person standing at the door of the toilet, looking into the eyes of people who came in, and to understand with horror that stray dogs looked like that.

It didn't take me long to understand that emigrants are needed precisely to keep the toilets clean, and not vice versa. And since there were more and more of us, it is natural that it was also necessary to fight for such a warm place under the sun. It is not a shame to be poor and humiliated, but it is impossible to live in order to once enter any toilet, casino, store … and not count the money. But despite this understanding, it still seemed to me that somewhere out there, between McDonald's and kebabs, there is that quiet and mysterious Germany.

It all started with shock. We saw the death of Colonel Gaddafi, and this death was so terrible that it became the key. She, like a missing puzzle, put together a picture of the world broken in the 90s. And it became very important to write a letter to the colonel, and even if this letter was to the village grandfather, it’s better this way than nothing. We woke up, and it seemed to us that we understood everything and wanted to share our knowledge with the world. My husband edited the video sequence for the program "world redistribution" and quarreled with those whom he had recently considered his friends. in Moscow, the Germans were not strongly convinced, he turned to social services for help in order to get the opportunity to retrain as an operator, but he was refused. The situation was such that in his free time from looking for work, it was possible to engage in volunteer activities. But these activities did not last long Incomprehensible calls began, strange people began to come to us. And then, suddenly, the two of us were invited to study. As in a fairy tale, they paid for everything, did everything, go study. My husband and I were surprised, but did not attach much importance to it. Of course, there is no time left to edit videos, but you can make a movie that will change the world and it is much better. I have already turned three. And in Germany, from the age of three, a child can go to kindergarten. We thought about it and decided to go to study together. It was only necessary to find a kindergarten. And we found it, next to the place of study. We were told that this kindergarten is inclusive and in it our child will be prepared for school, as well as taught to understand the suffering of others, to help sick children and much more important and useful.

The manager was a very pleasant woman, and we decided that the main thing was the human factor. Of course, it's strange that they take pictures and record everything that the children do. Of course, some innovations seem ambiguous, but the main thing is that the person should be good. And so, we started to learn.

Naturally, there was not enough time even for sleep, but if there was, at that moment, we would not be able to understand what is happening with children in Germany. Indeed, every day, entering the kindergarten, we saw laughing children, in bright costumes, painted and flushed from running and laughing. Later, when we had problems with juvenile justice, I had to deal with this. The first thing that had to be stated with surprise is that when Gianni Rodari wrote about the land of liars, he was writing not a fairy tale, but satire. And it was a portrait of a capitalist society. It is unlikely that, in my Soviet childhood, it would have occurred to me that this work could protect me, however, like Cipollino. Aside from the topic, I will note that when I read to five-year-old children born under capitalism about air taxes and poverty, they had very serious faces and they understood where to laugh. For those who are not yet in the know, I will describe inclusive education and briefly touch on the big picture, the experiment that is now being performed on the children of Europe. The most important thing is to understand that no matter how beautiful the speeches sound, no matter how sincere people are, words have no meaning in that world, and sometimes they mean the exact opposite of what is stated. The second, no less important knowledge, is that ideas are primary. Ideas rule the world. And it doesn't matter by whose mouth these ideas are being implemented. No matter how nice a person is, if he is not a convinced follower of the idea, he will not be able to be in the environment preaching these ideas. At the decisive moment, even a sweet person will have to choose. And his place in society, his financial well-being, his picture of the world will be at stake. And now about the ideas themselves. The child will be protected from any pressure. His desires are above all, and this is so that he does not live a life imposed by his parents or society. It sounds beautiful, in practice it means that there will be no closed doors in the kindergarten. The child will run all over the kindergarten and even sometimes, without asking, run out into the cold. You will be told that, in order to get out, the child needs to take time off, but a three-year-old or four-year-old child may forget, the teacher in the bustle of the day will not notice. And when you come for a child, you may have to look for him, and perhaps he will sit alone, like Diogenes in a barrel. This was the case with my son. And if you say that this is somehow wrong, they will explain to you that if the child wants, then this is the only correct one. They will be engaged with children, too, at their request. The child must independently come up and choose the direction that he wants to do. If you haven’t chosen it, it means that you don’t want to and you cannot touch it. And the fact that a child may not know a lot and feel embarrassed, and in the case of bilingual children, not master the language properly, or just get distracted, is not said in theory. I saw in this kindergarten a four-year-old girl in a dirty diaper. She slept under the bed. Nobody touched her, probably to avoid violence against the person. Also, the child's psyche will be protected from sadness and fear.

This means that even the "little red riding hood" can upset a child, make him think. All old fairy tales traumatize the psyche and it does not matter that in adulthood children will have to deal with illness, death, betrayal. No one will prepare them for these tests. And you will be forbidden Your child will be read strange books that do not cause either joy or tears. About an animal of the middle sex, an incomprehensible breed, about two mothers, about a funny poop. Perhaps your child will come home and ask who he will grow into a girl or a boy. So it was with me. The child will develop fine motor skills and, in general, all tactile sensations. He will dance, in clothes of the opposite sex and his own, with and without light, hugging each child and everyone together, and he will undoubtedly be liberated. Depending on the amount of money, a carnival will be arranged in the kindergarten. In our first kindergarten, it was daily. With dressing up and face painting. The children had fun, but my son, for a whole year, could not remember who's name. Everything that I described is characteristic, to a greater or lesser extent, of all kindergartens and schools. This is a general trend. Inclusion also implies the unification of children with disabilities and ordinary abilities. In terms of emotional support for children in need of special care. She was. The children tried to help. They learned, they are not afraid, but they understand. But from the point of view of development, which is so necessary in three, four years, it was more difficult. Children repeat one after another and adopt patterns of behavior. educators cannot break, they have to find something average, suitable for everyone, simple songs, simple games … But the most unpleasant thing is the daily observation and documentation of everything that happens to the child, what he says, draws, does, with the conclusions of a social worker, photos and a diary of the baby, which describes his favorite toys and other information useful for adoptive parents, which can easily end up on the desk of a juvenile employee. Fortunately, there are still Catholic kindergartens and schools in Germany, in which everything that is familiar to us is present. But even they cannot completely isolate themselves from general trends. I am very grateful to the Catholic kindergarten, which literally saved us. My child had not started speaking German by the age of four. I don't know what exactly was the reason, but he closed himself off and was silent. In kindergarten they were afraid of responsibility, at least that's what they told me in plain text. They claimed that he had serious deviations, that he did not understand speech. I had to go to a psychologist, who had already been told everything in advance, and he would direct us where necessary. I tried to object and offered to pass all the tests with a psychologist who knows nothing about my son. They spoke to me very rudely and threatened to expel me from kindergarten. I was surprised and wrote a statement that I was taking the child of my own free will. After that, the head of the kindergarten and the social worker wrote a denunciation to the juvenile justice that the child was in a life-threatening situation and did not go to kindergarten because of an irresponsible mother. I learned about this from a letter in which I was informed that they would come to me with a check from the juvenile authorities. In parallel with this, I found a letter in the box stating that I owe four thousand euros for utilities, and this despite the fact that I regularly paid every month. I thought it was a misunderstanding, but when, unexpectedly quickly, a blue letter came about, about the gas cut off, I felt cold inside. This shutdown coincided with the arrival of a commission from social services. I urgently needed to find at least a thousand, which is impossible in Germany without a job. No bank will give a loan. And we studied. I asked for help, they didn’t refuse me, but they were playing for time. My family helped me, which is also not a matter of course in the west.

We were looking for an opportunity to move to Russia, but unfortunately it is very difficult. In the Hamburg branch of the Russian consulate, where we submitted documents for the resettlement program for compatriots, they actually discouraged us, explaining what a terrible country Russia is, and how nobody needs us there. And then, without any explanation, without written notice, they said in a telephone conversation that we had been refused. We made an appointment twice to find out what was the reason for the refusal and if we have a chance to try again, did we do everything right ?! But the consul unexpectedly fell ill twice. Naturally, we found out about this, having made the way from Hanover to Hamburg and having stood in line.

When the check came, the apartment was warm. I was put on record and offered to sign a paper in which I was allowed to collect all information about the child. I was warned that I could refuse, but they will collect information without my permission, because the denunciation states that the child's life is in danger, and if I do not sign, it means that I am not cooperating and is hiding something.

It’s impossible to describe what I went through. We were lucky, the child passed all tests well. The doctors confirmed that he understands and speaks two languages, but he has a small vocabulary in German. His development is normal and there are no psychological trauma.

They took pity on us and took us to a Catholic kindergarten, despite the fact that the queue takes three years and still not everyone is lucky to get there. According to German law, the last year before school, the child must go to the kindergarten, otherwise it is a criminal offense. We lived, for almost two years, under close supervision, visits from a psychologist, etc. During this time, I turned gray, met many people who, like me, faced juvenile services.

They told me egregious cases, and explained how to behave in order to look adequate and positive. That I, no matter what happens, should not cry, shout, hug the child too much. You need to smile and have a pleasant small talk. People who did not come across these organs, even my relatives, did not believe me, looked suspiciously, doubting my adequacy. And I stopped, like many others, to talk about it. But even more terrible was the realization that even if the child was not taken away physically, following all the prescriptions, I would lose his soul.

By the beginning of the 2016 school year in Hannover, all education had become inclusive and the preparatory classes for children who still need to learn the language were gone. All children, with or without knowledge of the language, with physical and mental disabilities, were brought together. We lived in an ordinary, not the worst area, ten minutes to the city center. There were three people in our class of authentic German children. Integration into the German environment was out of the question. But sex education began in the second grade. The classrooms were decorated in a casual manner. The children sat at round tables, facing each other and with their backs to the teacher. There were no lessons as such. Children would do something until they got bored and made noise. This was a sign of fatigue and required a change in activity. True, the noise has never completely stopped, so I don't know exactly how the teachers solved this problem. Since such an atmosphere does not contribute to concentration and does not allow thinking to form, children must learn the alphabet for two years, they learn to add and subtract within 20 years.

They are not given marks, they write by ear, mistakes are not corrected for them so as not to injure them. Parents are not allowed to enter the school, even in the courtyard. It is not recommended to take textbooks home. Homework may seem difficult to someone, in fact, they were aimed at making the child learn to quickly distinguish patterns and thereby increase his ability to intuitively and quickly navigate in the virtual world. Psychology of a successful person. This is a sense of self-importance, inflated from scratch. Individualism has a legal right not to strain and do only what is easy. Teamwork, will teach you to be a cog in the system, to follow instructions exactly, to know your place. That's all, if you do not remember the "toilet police". Fourth graders were not supposed to let first graders, second graders and third graders go to the toilet during breaks. Something like that happened in previous years that they decided to close the toilets. You can go to the toilet only during the lesson, asking for time off. It is clear WHAT the first thing happened to the first graders, upon arrival at school. Such are the European innovations. And then the children faced their Turkish, Afghan, Syrian peers. While German psychologists painted the boys' nails, the visiting boys fought and knew how to do it so that the teacher would not notice. At the latest at this moment, you begin to understand that the child needs to be rescued from these rescuers, taken to a place where no one will experiment on him. The global world is everywhere, but while Russia is still resisting, the West already perceives everything as normal. How is this possible, you probably think ?! The performers are simply afraid of losing their place in the sun and blindly follow the instructions. All they need is a couple of beautiful words, they are glad to be deceived.

In order to understand what the architects of this experiment want, it is enough to carefully watch Western films for young people and children: The Hunger Games, Minions … they hide nothing. Don't you believe that such people exist ?! Read the chapter "The Grand Inquisitor" (F. M. Dostoevsky, "The Brothers Karamazov") They do not just exist, they consider themselves entitled, and they do it out of a kind of love. What are great architects building ?! It looks like a zoo where people are like animals and animals are like people. Let everyone be allowed everything! All bread, circuses, soft drugs, a short, meaningless life, free euthanasia! The world will be divided into Gods and beasts … Such a movie. Maybe I don't have enough imagination to present the architects' plan in its entirety, but something like this is in the air. And we decided to try again to submit documents to the Russian Consulate. We served in Bonn in spite of the fact that this is not a low beam and we had to go there more than once, and this is 400 kilometers. The consul had just changed there and … Everything worked out. What a blessing to have a green ticket in your hands. And let Kaliningrad be an aspen stake hammered by Stalin in the heart of Europe, so that the fascist salamander will never raise its head again. And even if this is possibly the next point of tension after Crimea. In times like these, it's not scary to die, it's scary to live without choosing a side. It remains only to get together, solve technical issues, and we are free.

At that moment, I find a letter in the mailbox, I again owe the German state, despite the fact that I paid 185 euros for utilities every month (This is more than an ordinary average family pays), it turned out that I owe another 2 thousand euros. I read in the letter that from next month my utilities will already be 350 euros. And I have to hurry up with paying bills so as not to end up in a dark and cold apartment.

I thought that with such amounts, I would definitely be accused of not being myself and not knowing how to use switches. It is a common practice when poorly educated people come to Germany, a social worker is assigned to them, who teaches them to fill out questionnaires, and everything else. And it records, records, records.

We decided not to wait for the denouement. A snowstorm, night and the witch's face of a Polish fair-haired border guard saw us off. But the enemy is not so terrible as he imagined himself. The fate of the new Babylon is already known. It will collapse under the yoke of accumulated contradictions. May God give you strength, love, patience and kindness in these dark times, and may the Lord protect you. Victory will be ours!